Changing Faces

Friday, December 21, 2007

Christmas Wishes

I actually dont know what to type, so expect anything from this post


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Yay!!!
Its Christmas again....hmn, as if you guys dont know that already.

This season is dedicated to:

The memories of my mum, i'll still wear an afro for her.

My dad who gave me money to buy christmas dress...daddy's girl abi? I love you, baami.

My elder and younger brothers who makes sure the generating set is on whenever PHCN withholds electricity.

My female siblings: hmmn....they are loving terrors. Compliments of the season.

Cute nephews and nieces scattered across the country....will have playmates for you, if you guys promise not to scatter my room.

All bloggers who has deemed it fit to comment on my blog and those that only come here to read what is in my head and does not comment. Thanks for your candid opinions, your jokes and everything. I wish you all a new better blogging 2008.

Best wishes to my employers who gave me access to the internet, although they wont get to read this...i appreciate them and may God continue to bless the company. ( i wonder how they tolerate me, cos i LOL whenever am on the net due to some.......story for another day).

Friends: the good ones, the bad ones, the evil ones, the really ugly ones, the pretty ones, the caring and friendly ones, the givers, the takers, the jealous ones, the encouraging ones. This season may all your heart desires come to pass according to your wishes for me. (...its just my thought...ok?)

Crazy colleagues: i know you guys wont fail to have a blast this season.

To other internet friends.....* blows a kiss*

Who else? my cousins, neighbours, repairman, mechanic, hair stylist, seamstress, favourite buyers, customers and to all those i meet on my way to work, to church, market, salon e.t.c.

And to those who will not get to read this post....all the best.

Merry Christmas to you all.
Merry Christmas to MOI!!!
*beaming*

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Paypackages and Qualifications

This post is just my thoughts and observation with no particular company in mind. Any resemblance to actual persons: employed or unemployed, companies: thriving or liquidated, is purely coincidental.

It irks me to see employees that are underpaid because they are not graduates but work effortlessly and put in more hardwork than some of their colleagues that are graduates, fickle brained and earn more.

Is it a standard everywhere that graduates gets paid more than undergraduates or its just a partial attitude from employers? Or they just decide to look the other way cos of a simple piece of paper that states that so and so person graduated from so and so school with so and so degree? Wait a minute! Is there a law somewhere that states that undergraduates should be given much work and treated with disdain in order for them to go back to school and complete their education so they can equally sit and earn big pay? I wonder what will happen to companies when everybody is a graduate and there's just no one to be underpaid who will do the job.

Its so demeaning to see someone work his butt off just to get the job done and there is this person that just sits somewhere without doing nothing and at the end of the month their paypackages are worlds apart. I just cant, for the life of me do that to my employees (when i do have them) Never ever!


One funny thing is, some employers complain about a particular staff who is a graduate that isnt fit to earn half of what is being paid, yet they continue to pay. Even when it is obvious that some staff work harder, come rain, come sunshine but they just fail to pay in order of productivity. My friends and i compare notes about our workplaces and the treatment that is being metted out to staff and we've just discovered that its the same everywhere (I dont know about your own workplace, though). There are really good graduates out there that are efficient and up to the task. But sincerely, why would some employers pay a dumbass graduate more than an agile, intelligent and hardworking undergraduate? (Maybe the employers are dumbasses too!)

When you look at terms of employment, it probably states " management trainee" "on probation" "salary will be reviewed based on productivity" "incentives" e.t.c. but when it comes to it...your salary becomes insignificant, you work just to earn more and the ones who arent working get promoted.

Will there ever be a time when you get paid according to your intelligence and not according to a paper from a school? Maybe a policy can be issued regarding this. Maybe its just the system i am in and its different out there. And most times the hardworker and the ficklebrained knows their pay packages should be swapped. They cant just do anything about it.

Maybe i am just out to see people earn according to their hardwork. Maybe i am just wrong. Wont it be simply wonderful if an undergraduate who is up to the task earn more than a graduate that is not? It will make the fickle brains sit up and act properly - incentives to the undergrads...abi?

I am outta here!

Friday, December 14, 2007

Memories

Ok, this is it.

I am thinking about the hairstyle i want to wear for christmas and new year.

Wierd, abi?

I keep seeing myself this christmas with an old school look. You know, the big afro hairstyle that reminds me of my mum - i have this passport (the only picture i have of her) where she had on an afro... i keep seeing myself wearing that style everytime i think of the forthcoming celebrations.

Of late, i have been thinking about her and its not even her memorial or anything....i just remember her and associate her to instances. To think i was so young when she died, i am baffled at the rate my thoughts dwell on her. I compare my friend's mothers to her everytime, i dont know if i am making sense, its just the way i feel.

Truth is, i am feeling miserable.
I feel so out of place, nowadays.
I keep thinking if she wasnt gone, i'll be a better person.
I guess i am just wishing she isnt out of my life.

I have so many things i want to ask her.
So many things i want to tell her.
So many things i want to take from her.
So many things i want to give her.

But she's no more.
Gone.
Out of this world.
She's where i can never connect to her.

I wish we could go to the market and shop together.
I wish i could tell her about blogsville and my naughty thoughts.
I wish i could post her picture here.
I just wish she's here.


Since i cant think of anything else, i am going to spend this season looking like her. I will sing her favourite songs, say quotes from her and make anecdotes. She's been gone for 13 years and 6 months and its still like yesterday...i can still remember the last time i saw her...what we talked about, word for word.

I hope during this yuletide, i can finally put her to rest in my mind.
I pray that i finally accept that she's gone and can only wish for me to live a fulfilling life.
I wish to be able to come back next year without pain in my heart.

I hurt, so terribly.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

He Cries.

Bushy eyebrows that archs gracefully.
Eyes so dark and piercing to make you stare in curiosity.
A beautifully shaped mouth that curls seductively when in laughter.
Lips that looks sexy enough to chew, lick and kiss.


Strong arms.
Firm butt.
Long legs.
Appealing smell.
A well defined body.


A heart that gives warmth.
A mind that is calculating and accomodating.
A soul that is deep, sensual and vicious, maybe when provoked.
A being that is imperfect.


A character that is defining.
Great sense of humor.
An attitude that is wacky.
Dress sense: always attractive.

A ruthless and shrewd business mogul.
An avid reader of books.
Religious
A philosopher.


A man.
Born of woman.


Yet, he cries.
Deep sounds coming from within.
At times, he howls.
At times, he just whimpers.


Its scary.
I feel like running away.
I want to embrace and console him.
Kiss the tears away.


What am i supposed to do?
Do i cry with him?
Smile inwardly?
How do i pet him?


Really, how do you handle a man that cries?